Another Day of Worrying

This landlord showed up again today, after 5pm...after I was all done for the day and I had settled down and had hope once again...now he shows up and wanted the name and number of my current landlord to call for a reference. I can understand completely that he has put a lot into the home and doesn't want a bad experience. I asked him if there was something wrong. He said he just wants to be cautious, the previous tenant was a woman who had BFs who would break out windows to get in, and that this woman was too lazy to take her children to the pot, and they child would urinate in the downstairs floor vents! That is sickning! He then asked me if I ever lived in Jersey Shore, I told him that I did not. He stated that a woman he talked to thought she knew me. So apparently, he mentioned my name, and this woman, thinking she knows me must have told him to be careful! He then began asking if I really was sure we could afford the place, plus the utilities with my unemployment...I assured him that we had money for our bills, and that I was considering remaining a "Stay at home Mom", maybe doing some biz from home. He did then start asking me how soon I would want to move in, and was talking to me about how he will call the man to get the toilet re-installed by the weekend, however the carpeting hasn't even been ordered yet. I told him we could work around that. So today is the day that he is to go to the bank and cash the Security Deposit. My hubby thinks that once he cashes the check then all will be fine. We'll see. I just want this all to be finalized so I can breath easy and have a firm path to the future!

New House

Here is a pic of the house I hope to be mine soon:

If you click on the pic, to enlarge it, and look real close between the two front doors, you will see a barn star! Sue sent me an email telling me about the meaning of the barn star "The present-day Barn Star, now popular on homes of every size and shape, has come to mean an outward sign of good luck and good fortune!" I am hoping this is an omen for my family! We need some good luck real bad, I'm not even worried about the good fortune, just some good luck will do me.

I've been worried all day! I called the new landlord to see if we could get together and sign the lease. When I called he was very short with me saying only "I don't know, I'll see what I can do. I'll have to call you back". I'll kinds of negative things went thru my head, I began shaking immediately and worrying that he changed his mind like the Greenways did. I tried real hard the rest of the day not to worry, thinking maybe he was busy when I called, or he might have his own personal trials and tribs going on. The Gabbies advised me to stop stressing, and let the ball in his court. I tried real hard! I still worried. Then he showed up at our door around 5:15 and said that the checks I gave him did not clear the bank. Well, that's because only the one was dated for Saturday (the Sec. Deposit), the other is November's rent, dated for Nov. 1st, so there isn't enough money in the bank to cover both. He said "Oh, I didn't even look", so he is going to go back to the bank on Wednesday, and we will get together Wednesday evening...I hope!

This is a pretty view of the Woodsey Alley right across the street from the new house:

Mail Art Call from 10/22/05

Look what I got from Jackie G. in Lookout Mtn, TN

So kewl! I bendable, flexible posey in a red ball with all kinds of "Happy Phrase" stickers on it, and of course some "Fairy Magic" and a tiny Fae Charm! Thank you Jackie...Love it!

My weekend was alright...well, more than alright! I went to bro's house Friday evening, but before that my SIL and I stopped by a house that she saw close by with a "For Rent" sign in the front yard. Someone just happened to be there showing the place. I took a quick tour, that's all that was needed...it is everything I always wanted...Glass French Doors separating the front room and LR...an eat-in kitchen, 3 BRs, nice size fenced in yard, lots of gardening area. Nice sice front and back porches, also a balcony off the back bedroom and access to the basement from the back yard! Lots and Lots of airey bright windows. The house is just two blocks from the kids school bus stop and one block to a store. I gave the man my name and number, he said he'd have the owner call me in the morning. So Saturday Morn, hubby and I met with the owner and I gave him the Sec Deposit and a check for the first months rent. Hope to move in by the 1st. I'm already packing. We have to meet with him today to sign the lease. Hoping also, that he will give me a key and let me move boxes over there throughout the week to get this stuff going. I can't wait to be in there and setting up just the way I've always wanted my home to look!

Mail Art Call 10/20/2005

I'm a day late...I was just so tired lastnight, and really could not put my all into posting this fabulous Mail Art from Wanda M. in South TX! My bro and hubby were here when the mailman deliverd "the boot"...he handed "the boot" to hubby and hubby was like "What the *H*!" and just looked at me shaking his head! That one definately intrigued him. I asked the mailman what he thought, he said it was "pretty neat, I delivered the frisbie the other day too!" My bro was cracking up, asking where the other boot was! That got me to showing him the other stuff I received and made, he was just shaking his head too, saying I have WAY too much time on my hands, but he was absolutely amazed! My bro loves me! Here is "the boot" (remember, you can click on these images to see them full size in all their glory!)

The paintings were for Kayley and I. Then one for me is in response to my Fairy Theme Mail Art Call. And I love my new magic wand....the pink Tinkerbell Feather Pen! I'm casting spells on hubby to make him "The Perfect Hubby"!

Shopping Day!

Well, I just had enough! My coffee pot was acting up this morning, that made two days in a row! I called my SIL and we went to Wal-Mart. I got a new coffee pot, the fabric I've been wanting to reupholster my couch (won't do that until after we move now though), some crafty items for my Halloween Danglie Show and Tell Project, and an object to use in a Mail Art Call that I will be doing. After Wal-mart, I went to the grocery store to get dinner. That gave me enough time to get home and set up my new pot and go get Kayley from the bus stop. Oh, I was just so tired. But I got through cooking dinner and took a very short nap on the couch. My SIL brought a bag of clothes from a friend. They are all great! Lots of nice outfits, in case I ever go back to working in an office, which I really don't think I want to do. Don't know what I want to do. Actually, I think I'd rather get a car and buy and sell stuff from home! Have a nice little Shabby Chic shop in my house! I never did get to any mail art today, or the danglies, or any house hunting! Just feel really run down. Oh well, just waiting on Jake to watch a movie, but think I will go to bed and wait with Law and Order. Have to get up extra early to take Kayley to the doctors to check out her cough before then taking her on to school. Oh yeah, I almost forgot, I spent the whole morning and started a new web page...check it out! http://mysite.verizon.net/vzeowz20/

Mail Art Call

Name: sue hankins
E-mail address: hankins93@cableone.net
Comments: i would like to make a mail art call for anything to do with faeries and dragonflies.i want to decorate my craft/office walls with art.any medium will work and i want to receive snail mail only.
sue hankins
1043 simpson rd.
dyersburg,tennessee
38024

I am a day behind on everything!

Here is the art I received yesterday from S.Thomas in Lexington, KY. This is done on a frisbie, he commented that he sealed the drawings with bookbinding tape. His drawings are so cute! Makes me want to try my hand at drawing too!

Mail Art Call

Yesterday I received mail art from our Gabby's very own Brenda! And it was very beautiful, made with rich textured pink fabric and Victorian clip art! Yeah!! Sorry my camera didn't bring out the pretty pink colors of the fabric...

My Mail Art Creations

Someone from my group made a comment today and it dawned on me that I was just about to send some of my mail art out into the world, maybe to never be seen again, and I didn't document it with a photo, so here are some pics of the projects I'm getting ready to send out, some I can't mention where they are going (shhh! it's a secret!) This one is going to D.Sprague in Caldwell, ID done in "bare" colors to fill her "bare" dorm walls! This one to Alexandra Elin Gallery for their 1st Annual Mail Art Gallery in Gainesville, FL done in orange, purple and green! Oh, I wish the colors turned out in this one...it's great in the Fairy Theme with Blacks and Browns/Polka Dots and Stripes going to E.Frank in Montreal Quebec Another great one done in Greens saying "Dream it, Do it" to lift the spirits of E.Fae in South Hadley, MA And my two secrets!

Landlord/Tenant Saga Continued I

Here is a pic of the trash that has been sitting infront of my neighbor's front porch (connecting to my front porch) for a week or more now.
The court hearing was at 9:30, she was actually there for a change. Nothing got settled. The judge listened to both our arguments, he is going to send us his decision within two days. However, I know he will rule to evict, because she has that right for any reason. But I did bring up that SHE was in breach of the rental contract for not repairing the sink and such. That I have kept my agreement with her other than missing August rent, and that she has done nothing about the neighbors. Now we just have to wait and see, then we will appeal any decision regarding the money due her. So I will keep it going as long as possible to give us time to find another place and come up with the rent, security deposit and moving costs. This time I am looking for "THE perfect place" that has all the amenities we need...three full bedrooms, large kitchen, living room, front room, basement with w/d hookup, attic, large bathroom, insulated walls and windows (no drafts), flat floors and nice size private yard centrally located in town. I'm not rushing into anything that isn't going to work out in the long run, I do not want to have to move for a long time!

Mail Art Day

I've been working on my mail art all day today! It is very addicting, Thanks a lot Wanda! Better than drinking beer though, that's for sure! A lot of the girls from Gabby are planning on working on it now too; Renie, Brenda, Sue, and Ash! Ash is making embellished story tins...hope she sends me one! Renie just loves paper of any kind, so not sure what she's planning, Brenda is trying it out for the first time, can't wait to see what she has sent! I finished Wanda's Jack-o-Lantern Mail Art Call, so I'll get that out tomorrow. I did an ATC to return to P. Noble, I did a Mail Art with a Star theme for Renie, answered a mail art call to E. Fae in South Hadley, MA and a Fae Mail Art Call to E. Frank in Montreal! Fun, Fun, Fun. Here is the Mail art that I received yesterday from C.Corazon in LaVernia, TX If you notice C's card says "Write Your Own Story"...now isn't that funny that Ash just suggested I do that with the dream I had the other night? Just too wierd that I would get this card the very next day!

Mail Art Call from P. Noble

I received my first Fairy Mail Art Call from P.Noble in Bethlehem, PA She did an awesome job! In keeping with the "joyful heart theme" that I mentioned in my Mail Art Call, she placed "Joy" quotes on her art "A joyful heart makes a cheerful face" and "Make Time to Smile"! Thanks P. Noble...made my heart joyful!

Mail Art Call - Fairies

I am  a person looking to heal her soul and spirit, put some joy back in my days, and give me hope of each day. My friend Wanda introduced me to "Mail Art" and "Artist Trading Cards". I am so amazed at the art she receives everyday,  I love art, not real good at it but would love a creative way to express myself. Therefore, I'd like to start a Mail Call by snail mail only with the Theme being "Fairies" If anyone would like to share their talent and expertise, I would be very thankful. My contact information is: Carrie, 610 Third Avenue, Williamsport, PA  17701.  No returns, all art exhibited on my blog and images of exhibition will be e-mailed if you include your e-mail address. Will gladly send art in return if requested!  Thanks!. Please forward this email on to anyone who you think may be interested in participating....carrie

...Carrie
My Email: crconfer@verizon.net
My Homepage: http://www.geocities.com/crconfer

Surprise Package

Here is the tea set that I received today in the mail from Jenna in Washington State! Thanks Jenna...it will be cherished!

Recipe Cards

I spent the morning copying and pasting the Gabby Girls recipes onto Recipe Cards that I formatted to fit into my three ring recipe binder. They turned out awesome, and now I have the template, so they won't be hard to keep up with at all from here on out! I just love it...they are all printed with the girls names on them, and some with dates of submission. This will be a real keepsake and something to pass down to the kids.

Another Sleepless Night

I was very warm lastnight, couldn't get comfortable, had the fan on still had to keep pushing blankets off me. My legs ached terribly, ended up taking my Tylenol PMs and just dozed then Jake called waking me up at 10:30 asking permission to stay out at the bar...which he shouldn't have even been at! Then he ends up calling my phone again around 2 am, which woke me up but I wasn't awake enough to answer it on time, he was probably calling to ask if he could stay out longer, but since I didn't answer he came straight home! I'm so sick of his BS! Has me go thru all my paperwork to see exactly how much we will owe the landlord when we go to court on the 17th and also had me call to get an insurance quote on me driving the van (I can get my driver's license back now), then he goes back to sleep only to wake and start giving me a hard time on the money situation that he asked me to look into! I just kept telling him to shut his big mouth and don't ask me to do anything anymore if he is just going to argue about it! But then he leaves the house lastnight, acting like he is big strong provider and HAS to make this money that we need...only to end up in the bar and spend any money he DID have because it was $2 rum and coke night! Yeah...right, I'm not that stupid, it was Thursday night Pool Night where he always met up with his ex-girlfriend and her step father! I mean what does he take me for? A jackass? So then he passes out in my bed and has me all wedged on the side of my bed, had to keep pushing him over, but I had his stinking elbow in my back all night anyhow. And as soon as I get out of bed, he curls up on his own side of the bed! He just woke up for all of a half hour...now back in bed again until it's time for him to go running around town! Or until it's time to meet up with his girlfriend, whichever comes first. He will leave me sooner or later, and it sure won't be soon enough, he cannot provide for me or my kids, and I'm sick of his crap! Be my guest...JUST LEAVE SOON! I took a bunch of pics of him yesterday while he had his shirt off, and I sent them to his email! Hoping he will see them and be just as disgusted as I am and maybe he will start lifting weights and giving a shit about himself!

My New Desk

Today is a whole new day! Hubby got us new desks and we moved the "office" out of the basement upstairs to the front room by the front door! Now I can get fresh clean air from the door and window, plus sunshine! Yeah! This pic isn't the greatest. I'll try another one later in the day with more natural light!

A new day!

In the Gabby Group, we were discussing having "hope" by making each day just a little different.  I've been very very depressed lately with all the neighbor and landlord BS, but today is going to be different, one way or another, and it already is.  Here is a poem from Janet:

 

Attitude Is Everything

I woke up early today, excited over all I get to do before the clock
strikes midnight. I have responsibilities to fulfill today. And I am
important.

My job is to choose what kind of day I am going to have:

Today I can complain because the weather is rainy or I can be
thankful that the grass is getting watered for free.
Today I can feel sad that I don't have more money or I can be glad
that my finances encourage me to plan my purchases wisely and guide
me away from waste.
Today I can grumble about my health or I can rejoice that I am
alive.
Today I can lament over all that my parents didn't give me when I
was growing up or I can feel grateful that they allowed me to be
born.
Today I can cry because roses have thorns or I can celebrate that
thorns have roses.
Today I can mourn my lack of friends or can excitedly embark upon a
quest to discover new relationships.
Today I can whine because I have to go to work or I can shout for
joy because I have a job to do.
Today I can complain because I have to go to school or eagerly open
my mind and fill it with rich new tidbits of knowledge.
Today I can murmur dejectedly because I have to do housework or I
can feel honored because the Lord has provided shelter for my mind,
body and soul.
Today stretches ahead of me, waiting to be shaped. And here I am,
the sculptor who gets to do the shaping. What today will be like is
up to me. I get to choose what kind of day I will have!
~ author unknown ~

 

Hesitant about posting

I was very hesitant about posting the previous posts, I had written it in my personal journal. But then I thought, why am I trying to protect myself against what other people think about the chaos that is going on in my life? Why am I trying to hide the actions of dh? I've done nothing wrong, all though I have been guilty of displacing my anger and not directing it where it should be directed in the past, maybe this is just paybacks. Showing me how it felt to be the subject of MY anger. But I have never treated him like the dog that he has been treating me like.

More Rage

After his blow up yesterday afternoon, he never left the house until 8pm or so, I figured he wouldn’t keep his promise of coming home by 11pm, at 11:01 pm I beeped him several times, I then tried calling his cellphone but got his answering service. I figured he was in Tommy’s Bar and couldn’t hear his phone over the music. I beeped him several more times, and he finally responded saying that he was on his way! Yeah, now that he realized he was late. He said he was starving and asked me to heat him up some lasagna, which I did then heated myself some. When he got home, he went downstairs with his lasagna, and I went in my room. He asked why I wasn’t coming down, I told him that I had just sat down there for three hours, it’s my bed time. Then he went to get some soda, but it was almost all gone. He came questioning me as to who drank all his soda, then began threatenting to beat on Dakota for drinking it. I told him that if he ever layed his hands on my son or me, I would have him arrested! And then I tried to quelsh his anger by saying I’d be happy to walk and get some more if it was that important. He began screaming at me “Go get my soda bitch, Go get my fucking soda!” Then he took his glass plate of lasagna, threw it in the sink, shattering it! I told him I wouldn’t
do anything for him as long as he was ordering me around like some kind of dog! But he kept screaming at me just like a dog! Like he did earlier yesterday on the phone! Where he has got off talking to me like this, I DO NOT KNOW! But it better stop! If I was a man, and he spoke to me like that, I would have wailed the shit out of him! Ain’t no man would stand there and take that verbal assault! He left out of the house. I knew all this was just him making up an excuse to leave the house. Again he says he will move out in two weeks!!! Yeah, right. He will wake up and act as though none of this happened, he won‘t WANT to remember his actions or be reminded of them cuz he knows it was sickening! He was still screaming at me over the cellphone to “Go get his fucking soda” as I was walking to the store, some girl (who I believe to have been Dorian’s GF) was laughing about it all in the background on his phone, laughing at him treating me like that, she was getting a real kick out of it! All over soda! I got his soda, and told him to put it downstairs, but he refused. He will leave it in the fridge, drink it all himself then accuse us, and I will have no way to prove that we didn’t touch it!

When I asked Dakota if he drank it, he said he did not, that Jake told him to pour him some. Oh yeah, and forgot to mention that he took a blanket and pillow to the couch, like that was going to hurt me. So, I just
sprawled all out on the bed. He ended up coming to bed around 3:30 am and trying to nudge me over. I just got up, gathered my pillows and slept on the couch myself.