Merry Christmas!

Hope all is well with everyone on this fine Christmas Eve Day! No snow in the forecast, actually mild temps in the 40s forecasted, and that's just fine with me, we still have lots on the ground from the last two snow storms!

This year has brought us many changes, lots of ups and downs, but the biggest blessing of all is that I'm here with my children, we are healthy and happy, we have learned a lot throughout the year, we have friends and family that care about us, sometimes more than I may realize, and I'm so greatful to be here.

Dakota is a Junior in highschool this year, and I'm so proud of all his accomplishments, the changes I've seen him through and the man he is becoming...he is no longer a young boy, but a young man, and can grow a full beard and mustache with the biggest of them! (LOL)

Kayley is still a very happy little girl, and I just love that about her. She dances around and sings all the time (sometimes she makes noise constantly, and I wish for some "quiet"). She started Kindergarten this year, and she is making friends independently of me now.

I'm anxiously awaiting my kid's bed time tonite! Dakota isn't so bad, he's older and he won't snoop too much, he'll probably try to sneak a peak after the tree is loaded! But Kayley, she is another story...she'll have to be sound asleep before I go creeping around or she won't sleep all night! The kids will be pleasantly surprised Christmas Morning, between some special gifts being sent and Dakota's grandparents and Aunt Kellie, they seem to have made out pretty good! I have to get the bird thawing for dinner quickly!

I've cranked the heat up today in the house, as a special "treat" so the living areas will be comfortable for Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, keeping it at a modest 65 instead of 55, my feet are freezing though! Merry Christmas to all...wish I could be there to celebrate with all those I love dearly!

Blogger acting funny

Well, I've been trying to upload a photo of my friends to my blog, but it's acting very funny, don't know if the size is too big, but it's saying that it's there and it's been published...I just don't know.

No real news these days, trying to get ready for christmas, dealing with the bills and the heating oil, job hunting! I hurt my back shoveling snow and carrying too many groceries home from the store, I need to just relax for a couple days but there is so much that needs done too!

I met a guy, his name is Michael. It's kinda cute how I "kinda met" him. He walks his son to the same bus stop that I walk Kayley too, the other day he stopped me and asked me my name, now he has been chatting with me each day. He's cute, don't know his story though...don't know if I WANT to know it...well, yeah, I WANT to just don't know if I SHOULD! Might cause more drama! And he has a child of his own, that's a little scarey!

Haven't been online lately

This was a very large picture, so I'm hoping that it resizes on the Blog okay...it's a great shot of Kevin, Shelly, Richie and I!  Love this pic.  We went running around lastnight, had a real good time, went by Kevin's Mother's house, haven't seen her in quite awhile!  We ran into Keith, who mentioned that he had a run in with my EX Friday night.  Apparently DH was spouting his mouth the week before to some girl, telling her that he doesn't like Keith, because Keith and I were "involved" and I cheated on him with Keith...yeah, like that ever happened.  Anyhow, Keith caught up with the DH and called him on it, DH denied having a problem with Keith, blah blah blah!  But then after Keith left, the girl called Keith back up telling him that DH was again running his mouth after Keith left saying that when "he gets his Income Tax Refund, (DH) is gonna rob his ass", so it looks like he is running his mouth a bit too much, and he may be in for some trouble coming his way.  One major problem is that all this supposedly took place in a bar that DH is not allowed to be in, so that makes me wonder how he got in the door and is he gonna continue to go there, because it's been the one safe place that I can go and not have to worry about him being up in there.  Well, with my running around lastnight...the kids ran my house to death!  Kitchen is a mess, lampshade knocked off the lamp, votive candles on the floor...my nephew and his woman passed out on my couch, their outerwear strown all over the floor!  Oh...what a mess!  Guess I won't be doing much relaxing today until this mess is cleaned up!

Great Finds at the Thrift Store

One of the Gabbies showed her Christmas decorating pics, and I love all the mini Christmas trees, so I figured I'd stop in the Thrift Shop to see what they had. Sure enough, I found one for 50 cents, and a Santa's Sleigh, and a whole bunch of Christmas Gifts from my kid's lists! Shoot everything is like brand spankin' new, and I paid just under $30...pretty much completed my daughter's wish list; however my son is a little harder to buy for. At almost 17, he wants Chemistry Lab equipment and Terrarium equipment...not going to find that at the Thrift Stores! I did get him some really nice shirts and fleece sweatshirts though!

Christmas Decorations!

We had a real nice snow fall late Saturday night and into Sunday morning..not too much to shovel, and not too little that it would just quickly melt away! Got me in the mood to get my Christmas decking done! Turned out real nice, I am pleased with it! And so was a small child walking past with their mother...I heard the child outside, from inside my front room, exclaim with joy over the christmas lights and the candy canes hanging from my porch! That made the work well worth it!

I had decided, when I moved, to pack all of my snowman collection away rather than keeping it displayed all year long as I always have. And I'm glad I did! I showcased them all under the tree this year, and it makes me love them all the more! Looks so festive! I did my tree in a "red bow" theme this year! Pretty kewl the way it turned out! And I got my flag pole put up and hung a huge stocking from it!



To see all my decorating pics, go to

Christmas 2005 Album

Re-Transformation

Since my recent separation from Hubby, I have begun the re-transformation from "wife" to my "old self" once again, a lot of changing...leaving the Hubby's name far behind and reclaiming what was once mine and what is "ME".  There is no "finding myself" involved in this...I "found" myself a long time ago..I just changed my ways for a person that I thought would appreciate it, but  it's my way or the highway for now on!...

I spent the day yesterday, and I mean the WHOLE day, changing over everything on my computer...passwords, usernames, titles on pages, links...anything that had to do with HIS last name connected to me!  I also took and moved any pic of him out of my main photo albums to one file...I did save them, rather than deleting them...only for my daughter's sake...but I don't care to see his MUG tangled up among my family pics. He doesn't deserve any rights to be among "my family" anywhere!  It was a good feeling!  Like that commercial that they have out...where the girl is sitting on the bed saying how the last step in putting a man in her past is by deleting his name from her cellphone!  Do I sound bitter?  Not really bitter...just happy to be done with that chapter of my life and so ready for the future and all it holds!  He was a large weight holding me down!

Trying out Yahoo Photos!

I wanted to see how "user friendly" Yahoo Photos really is. I like the drag and drop feature...probably would be even better if I was on highspeed again, rather than this dial up stuff. But I wanted to see how adding a photo to my blog works with the URL adding. It doesn't work for me, must be doing something wrong!? This is a photo I took of Kayley and Sylvester this morning...they looked so cute this morning in their "matching outfits"! Sylvester is the most well-behaved kitty cat with children, and he really is Kayley's little buddy. He lets her do anything with him. She's not grabby with him though, she loves him up all the time, giving him kisses and pets him constantly...which he just eats it all up! He will actually sit on the floor with her while she is playing with small toys, and he tries to play too! Always has to see what she is doing!

Yesterday was a pretty uneventful day. I didn't attempt any major tasks, other than some laundry, dishes, and gabbing on the phone and with the Gabbies! I was feeling a little worn out; from all the painting, no doubt!

Coughing Fit leads to lots on my mind!

Again, I woke up with a coughing fit...this time around 4am! It was a pretty bad one, making me sit upright, racking my whole body, tears rolling down my face, not being able to take a deep breath just from all the exhaustion of coughing and gagging reflexes! There is no going right back to sleep after an episode like that, feels like you are drownding in thick mucous!

So, being awake this early got my mind to spinning with other thoughts. My baby boy cat, Sylvester, had been missing since dinner time (this is him in the pic)I walked about the house again, and he finally came out of hiding! He's a sound sleeper! Wherever it is he goes (probably in a dresser drawer or maybe a box in the attic)when he pulls these disappearing acts, he sleeps long and hard!

Another thing is that my garbage man was standing in line (or more like, standing on my back porch) this evening wanting to get paid! He is the one that helped me move, then dropped the $300 price tag down on me afterwards. I had expressed to him beforehand, how I was in a real situation, didn't have a lot of funds to work with, no truck available to me, and needed to get moved. After he moved me, he came up with that figure. I have every intention of paying him; however, that's a bit steep with all the other bills piling up too! Not only do I owe him, and I hate that feeling, but he mentioned something about Jake that unnerved me! He made the comment that Jake told him that he gave me $1000..now he said he didn't know to believe Jake or not, because Jake is taking him for a ride on some comp work, but I was just dumbfounded!

When on earth does Jake THINK he gave me $1000? He can't possibly be still thinking he gave me a Thou back in September? When we were looking to move into the house the Greenways had for rent, Jake gave me money in September towards that rent and security deposit, which would have put him at nearly a Thou for that month, but then he took that money right back too when we didn't get the place, and he spent it on computer parts...so that brought his figure back down to $660 for the month towards the house! He watched me every single day, adding up the figures he gave me to the itemized list, yet after the month was over he argued to hell and back that my figures was wrong, and I had cheated him! So, now I know he's running around acting like he is the victim of our relationship! If people only knew what a bum and a burden he has been for so long, and how abusive he is! The man really makes me sick, and I pitty any woman that gets involved with him, unless he gets some serious help!

Also, lastnight it dawned on me that I did not notify a lot of places about our address change...one being the Social Security office, therefore Dakota's check is going to the old address and they do NOT forward that, unless I can get ahold of the post office early this morning and see if they can catch the mail carrier and have her hold it at the post office, it will go back and God knows when they will re-issue the thing...this just puts me further behind on needing funds! My own fault though...there are a lot of things that I need to follow up on and still haven't done them!

But I did get the wallies hung in the kitchen and they look so awesome:

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