Hesitant about posting

I was very hesitant about posting the previous posts, I had written it in my personal journal. But then I thought, why am I trying to protect myself against what other people think about the chaos that is going on in my life? Why am I trying to hide the actions of dh? I've done nothing wrong, all though I have been guilty of displacing my anger and not directing it where it should be directed in the past, maybe this is just paybacks. Showing me how it felt to be the subject of MY anger. But I have never treated him like the dog that he has been treating me like.